When I was mulling around ideas for this post, I originally thought about entitling it “Fat for the Summer”. A cheeky nod to Demi Lovato’s seasonal anthem, yes, but also a personal truth: I ALWAYS gain weight between the months of June and September.  Always. I eat right and exercise passionately all fall and winter, but when the weather heats up, all bets are off. I’m done. I want lazy summer days in my bikini and personal pan pizzas (and froyo, and French fries, and nachos) and Netflix at night. Healthy living? What’s that?! Considering the fact that I basically started my f-exercise, eating-with-abandon routine in early May, this year’s iteration of the summertime slump has been particularly awful. Really, truly, I have not been taking care of myself. I have been eating poorly, avoiding my self-set workout dates, and not sleeping right, and all of those behaviors have become my new normal. The worst part is, while I don’t feel like myself, actually getting back on track seems incredibly daunting. Change is uncomfortable.

But you know what else is uncomfortable? Being unsatisfied.

That’s where I am right now. I’ve { S L O W L Y} come to the realization that I’m unhappy with how I’ve been treating myself. I’m unsatisfied. I want more.

I feel sluggish and bloated from gorging on processed food. My skin is freaking out. My clothes are beginning not to fit me. I went to a wedding this weekend, and I felt like nothing I packed looked or felt good on me. Considering where I was {and how I amazing felt} this winter, that’s all pretty horrifying. This isn’t me, and it isn’t what I want.

You can read tons of articles about motivation, buy training guides, fitness programs, and pre-workout supplements, and page through endless copies women’s health magazines and self-help books in the search for inspiration, but until you reach your own personal breaking point, you’re not actually going to do anything differently. Words can resonate, but they won’t make you change. You have to decide to do that.

This is me deciding. This is personal.

I’m sharing this here because I need the accountability, yes, but also because I wanted to be real and to let you all in on what I’ve been going through and struggling with. A lot of times, blogs and Instagram pictures can make our lives look impossibly perfect – tan legs, toned tummies, exotic vacations, casual yoga poses, fresh fruit, small plates, cute puppies. It’s something we want to emulate. I’m as guilty of this as anyone. But behind the scenes, it’s just me. I’m nowhere near perfect, and right now, I’m having a rough time. Maybe you can relate.

I know I can get back to where I was…I just have to start. But hey–I have a library of saved workout routines, an iPhone for progress pictures, and a Vitamix for healthy eats. It’s going to be fine.



2 comments on “Summertime Slump”

  1. Thanks so much for writing this post! I feel like I am right there with you and it was almost like I was reading my own thoughts. I recent moved from Sydney to Chicago and the transition has got me feeling anything but motivated to workout and eat healthy. I just keep coming up with excuse after excuse, but it stops here and now! Best of luck with getting back on track!

    • Thanks so much for reading, Paula! I’m so happy to hear that this resonated with you–we can beat the slump, haha! ♡

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