About a year ago, I undertook the 100 Happy Days challenge. Upon beginning that challenge, I made the following post on Tumblr:

2014 realness, via my personal Tumblr page.
2014 realness, via my personal Tumblr page.

…If you haven’t ever attempted 100 Happy Days, I highly recommend it. Not only will seriously improve your happiness and day-to-day experience, but it also makes for perfect Instagram fodder. Trust me. Determined as I was to complete my 100 days, I only made it to day 67-ish or so before abandoning the challenge…not because it was too difficult or time consuming, but because I felt as if it had served its purpose in my life. Simply put, I was ready to move on, and I felt okay about doing just that. Like attracts like, and happiness begets more happiness. My happiness levels were good.

Unfortunately, the reverse is also true: Negativity begets negativity. Fast forward fifteen months. Re-reading the above post this week, I realized how far I’ve come from that generally happy place and those positive feelings. The awareness. The ability to bask in even the smallest “happy” moments, appreciating and absorbing them  exactly as they are. I stopped paying attention. I didn’t actively seek joy. I got caught up in everything {and anything} else.

Now I’m here. Those happiness levels? Totally wonky.

Winter is always a rough season, and it’s easy for me to get caught up in a pattern of negative thinking, bad vibes, and general pessimism. The phenomenon goes both ways. Once a mood has settled in, it’s hard to shake. If I’ve learned anything from BOTH of these experiences, it’s that our minds are crazy powerful. Intentions, attraction, vibes? REAL.

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I’m currently thirsting for more happiness, positivity, intrigue, and adventure. Know what’s cool? That it’s up to me to make that my reality. And that I can make it happen. I just have to make a shift. Though I liked it, I don’t feel like restarting 100 Happy Days. I have no desire to start a blog that chronicles my personal pursuit of happiness. And the traditional 5 item, nightly gratitude list that everyone swears by isn’t really my thing. I recently came across two quotations on Tumblr that summed up what I want to be doing and how I want to be living. The first:

Accept — then act. Whatever the present moment contains, accept it as if you had chosen it. Always work with it, not against it. Make it your friend and ally, not your enemy. This will miraculously transform your whole life.

-Eckhart Tolle

The second:

Document the moments you feel most in love with yourself – what you’re wearing, who you’re around, what you’re doing. Recreate and repeat.

-Warsan Shire

With these thoughts as my guide, I am going to make a concerted effort to notice, to focus on, and to document some of the daily happy happenings that I’ve been missing the past few months. I’ve already reserved a teeny-tiny notebook to keep a {private} written log of these such tidbits. Maybe I’ll aim for 100 moments. Maybe I’ll fill the entire book. Maybe I’ll just do it until I feel like I’ve gotten my mojo back. The goal is to be increasingly mindful and reflective, yes, but it’s also to genuinely redirect my way of thinking. Hopefully by doing this, I’ll be able to recapture a little bit of the sparkle that I’ve been missing. Again, feel free to join me.

Happiness is always there…we just have to pay better attention.

xx,

Liza

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